I think I can, I think I can...

So, it's day two of the "new" year, and I think I'm doing okay with that list of things I would like to accomplish within this year.

I didn't eat or drink anything that I know is bad for me all day yesterday.

Although I have yet to clean my car out, I did think about it and hope to accomplish that today.

I didn't have any red meat yesterday, and I had a little more water than usual, but not enough.

I didn't have time to read anything, but I was busy having a fun filled day with my one and only at the moment. 

Although its been a rather frustrating past couple days, I am starting to feel better about this new beginning for me.

With graduation over, I still feel like my life as I knew it has come to an end, but I am in search of the next adventure, whatever that may be.

I'm trying to look on the bright side of things, and all of that mushy crap that people keep telling me, but its hard when I miss the undergrad life already. 

It seems like only yesterday I was a freshman thinking there was no way four years was going to be enough, and that I was living the life.

Five and a half years later I am finished and it seems like it all went by so quickly. 

They truly were the best years of my life.

I learned so much in college, more than just academics, but also how to take care of myself, which unfortunately a lot of people seem to miss.

 I don't know was is next.

I want to go to grad school, but I have no idea what for, and where.

Then there is the whole GRE thing.

I feel the stress of the SAT all over again.

I am terrible at standardized testing, the worst, and it is definitely not a good representation of my mad academic skills.

I would love to move out of Georgia, and really start a whole new adventure.

The Peace Corps is still in the back of my mind somewhere, even though I am still very hesitant about running off for 2.5 years alone.

I have issues with being alone, or feeling alone.

I can be in a crowded room and feel alone. 

I hate that feeling and I hate that I have that complex, but its me and its just something else I have got to accept about me. 

Why waste life trying to change the attributes that make me unique, even if they are silly and quirky.

I really want a "real" job sometime in the near future, if that doesn't happen then I may not be able to accomplish the goal of paying half of my student loans.

That's another thing keeping me from rushing into grad school, I really don't want to leave those loans sitting there acquiring more interest than they need to.

I will feel MUCH better financially once those are paid.

I find it kind of ironic that I had a better income and better job which I was still in undergrad. 

I thought you were suppose to be poor while attending college and then have a plenty of money once you were finished.

Lies, all lies.

Oh well, money is one those things that just stresses me out, and since its on the list to not stress so much, I'm trying not to worry about it.

Shit happens for a reason, and I'm sure everything will work out just fine in the end, it always does, that's how you know its the end. 

Amirite?